Its been so long since I’ve written anything in my journal. Why? Because God has been busy moving mountains. Wow, what a journey I’ve been on.
I just want to say; my mom is amazing and has been such a wonderful support system for me during my time of trials and tribulations. My mom constantly urged me to keep looking to God for all my needs; peace, love, joy, and happiness. Thank you mom for loving me so much and for not letting me give up.
When people say “boy, you seem different” what changed? I often say I found Jesus, but the truth is he was never lost; I was! Thankfully he found me!
Let me tell you something; God has been really busy moving mountains in my life.
Let me back up a bit…….
A few months ago I had a huge set back and fell into a deep depression once again. I simply gave up. Once again my mom encouraged me to seek and glorify God. I prayed and prayed but seemed to get worse.
I was so exhausted one day I just cried out to God and simply said “God help me”….nothing more nothing less. That next morning I felt peaceful, rested, different.
Of course I called my mom, she says ” I woke up at 2am this morning thinking about you and I called and put you on a prayer list”. Man, God is amazing. Then she says something that set me on a road I never dreamed I would travel.
My mom says make a list; a list of things you want in a job. What? That’s crazy but ok. So I put the craziest non reachable goals down on paper then I gave it to God. That was March 2nd. But listen to this….. On march 1st I had a dream of the sun rising, the sun was so bright I had to squint my eyes, then I woke up singing “its time for us to do something”. Instantly I knew it was from God.
Fast forward to March 6th I applied for my unreachable job and on March 7th I was called in for a interview. Let me say this; “I had never done this kind of work before and I had no experience in this field. Well, on March 15th I was hired. I went back and looked at my list and 10 of the 13 things on my list God gave me. Holy, holy God is amazing. I start my new unreachable job Tuesday. Not only did God answer my prayers about getting a job but I prayed asking God to let me go someplace to kind of start over or just new surroundings. Well, I move into my new apartment in my new city Monday. What? I know God is amazing.
This has been a long exhausting journey, but thankfully God never gave up on me and never let me give up on him. Now my new journey begins.
God is good! My road has been rough and bumpy and I’m sure I’ll continue to have trials and tribulations, but now I know I’m not alone….. I have my father right by my side. I can face anything with God holding my hand.
Anyone out there who thinks you’ll never be healed, you’ll never get a job, you’ll never see your break -through, seek God, he loves everyone regardless of your past and I promise God will set you free and the blessings will be bigger than you ever imagined.
Well, with my heavenly father by my side I’m off and running.
I love you Jesus, I love you, I love you. Its time for me to put God first and now maybe God can use me for his good and as a witness of his healing, love, mercy, forgiveness, and glory.
God bless everyone and may your day be filled with Gods love and blessings.